Repeat

It's amazing how similar this recovery has been mentally compared to the last time. I didn't realize this until I just read my past posts.. and i'm pretty much feeling the same way today as I was on day 22 after my last surgery - antsy, tired, depressed. I don't really want to go back to work.. it means added stresses to my life that have been gone for the past three weeks, but at the same time I know that I can be working at this point and that it will probably make me feel better about myself. That's key to recovery I think. Right now all I can do is feel sorry for myself and wish that I was able to do all of my old tricks - going to the gym, riding my bike, planning winter ski trips, etcetera. I don't think that we'll be doing much skiing this winter.

I think I'll drive myself somewhere this afternoon to see how it goes.

Feeling really tired today. I don't sleep well these days.

Take Two

I had my second surgery 2 weeks ago on November 6th. So far, it has been different than the first one in so many ways. My hospital stay was absolutely terrible due to a couple of crappy roommates.. amazing what a difference that makes. My first surgery I had a roommate who I could related to, followed by a single room.. and I was comfortable and happy. This time, I had two roommates who were terrible and in the hospital for reasons not orthopedic.. both were t.v. junkies.. it was horrible.

My pain sucks this time. The epidural didn't work correctly in the hospital so I had bad pain control from the beginning. Now I'm mostly off of the morphine, but I'm having this terrible pain in my inner thigh. I don't remember having this pain last time, and it's really intense. It makes it so I can't really lift foot off the floor when I'm crutching. I kind of drag my foot along the floor. It really hurts. I'm thinking about taking vicadin or something stronger than tylenol but weaker than morphine.

Overall I think that I am progressing a little faster this time, and so far mentally I'm keeping it together. I haven't been getting out as much this time but maybe that will change as time goes on. I've been to Target twice, and best buy once.

My b-day was Saturday. Had lots of visitors that day. Was definitely the most quiet and uneventful birthday I've ever had.

This experience is so humbling.